Stop looking for Mr/Mrs Right...

I have spent the last 6 years looking for someone to be in a relationship with. Looking for someone to be there for me and to have a future with

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We all spend so much time wanting a relationship that sometimes we rush into things with a guy/girl. We starting dating them just because they are there and they are speaking to you.

In me trying to find Mr right I feel like I've lost myself. I put so much pressure on myself and come across like some overexcited puppy when speaking to a new guy, and what is it with guys these days you start speaking, get to know each other, go on a few dates and then nothing. When I say nothing I mean I've had guys block me off Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram etc. I mean if you don't want to speak anymore just grow a pair and say it. This then makes me believe there is something wrong with me. Am too fat? Too loud? Too in their face?

Do you know what the answer is?

Nothing. It's not me. It's taken me so long to start believing it's not me. It's not them either, I just keep saying it's not the right time. I've spent the last 6 years (since coming out) finding Mr I just want to have fun.

You know what that's fine for them, we all go through stages of our lives where we don't a relationship and we just want to scroll through dating app to find our next hook up or go on multiple dates to see who is out there. That's fine, we all need that time to find out who we are attracted to, our likes and dislikes etc.

I guess what I am really trying to say is. Forget Mr/Mrs Right. Just focus on yourself, your family and your friends. Make memories, drink too many shots on the weekend, make bad mistakes (we've all got a list) and just enjoy life. It's taken me 6 years to finally start to believe in myself and understand my self-worth. Maybe then when you least expect it he/she will come into your life. But if not don't worry just enjoy today and always do what makes you happy.

- J xx