Am I Gay enough?

Something that is always playing on my mind is, Am i gay enough?

Some of you will be thinking what the hell is he on about? Gay enough?

We live in a world where you are defined by the way you act and who you are friends with. I've been out for about 6 years now and I've never truly been comfortable with how I act. What I mean by that is that society has this image of how a gay male should act. They all believe we should be skinny, tanned and camp. They all believe that all us gay guys want is a one night stand, a quick shag and then move onto the next guy that become available on Grindr.

Being part of the LGBTQ community I feel as I don't fit in. I don't have many gay friends, I am not skinny, I don't got to the gay clubs as often as other people and my voice isn't what people stereotypical think a gay male should sound like. I am on more of the chubby side, I don't go out every weekend and I don't have many male friends.

I go on nights out with my friends, and I get women hitting on me and as funny as we find it, it really does knock my confidence and It just makes me feel like I'm not doing anything right. Then I start thinking why the hell am feeling like I should conform to what society thinks gay guys should be like.

Yes some guys are more in touch with their feminine sides, some gays do love the club scene, yes some gays do hang around with other gay guys and yes some guys aren't wanting to settle down and are just wanting some fun and there is nothing wrong with that. If we were all the same my god how boring life would be.

Just because I'm a bit more on the chunky side, I like to keep myself to myself, I want to settle down doesn't mean there is anything wrong with me and it doesn't make me any less a gay man.

I don't hide my sexuality and I never will. I feel no one ever should. As we grow up we all change, we go through life being different people and as long as you are happy within yourself, who cares what society expects you to be like. Just remember to be yourself whether that is gay, straight, bi sexual, transsexual you name it. Always remember to be true to yourself, love yourself and my God just be fabulous in whatever you do.