Trying to be an adult and failing…

So am I the only one who is failing at being an adult? Like aren’t I supposed to have some sort of plan for how I want my life to plan out?

Ever since I have finished my degree I’m feeling more and more lost. Work, work, drinking, getting fat, work, then bed and repeat. Is that what being an adult is like?

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f it is then I have 2 words for adult life; Fuck off! We all feel so pressured to have our lives figured out. Be in a relationship, have our own home, paying bills, working and thinking of other plans. The only plans I seem to think about are will I have a McDonalds for my dinner tonight. And my behaviour is just not what an adult is supposed to be like. I burst out into random songs mainly Disney, I make really inappropriate comments or remarks and if a song I know comes on when I’m in the car I go into full diva mode and get funny looks or laughing from other cars or people walking by. What is the meaning of someone being normal? I like being a little crazy it makes for life to be to a little more interesting. Doesn’t really work well for when I go on a first date with a guy. I always seem to find it hard to suppress the crazy in me.

I think this is why I and my friends get on so much. We are all just so random. It’s why I love them all so much. Every time I spend time with them there is something new and more crazy we discover about each other. My favourite quote I use is that they are all my “Beautiful weirdos” Why do we have to follow the crowd in our behaviours? The way I see it we all have our own quirky traits in which make up who we are. I can’t imagine not being the way I am or imagine my friends being ‘normal’ I suppose there’s still a little teenager inside of me that is just scared of becoming an adult. I’m currently failing at being an adult. Maybe I should pack my bags and move to Neverland because screw growing up and becoming an adult. I suck at being a 23 year old so I do not look forward to see how much I suck at 33.

I’m only 23 and I’m already wishing I was back at school with a care free life and all the worries I had to endure then were did I remember my PE kit? My parents always told me you will wish you were back at school one day and I used to just laugh at them. Well I hate to admit this but they were right. I can just hear my dad laughing and saying I told you so.

I suppose I shouldn’t worry about these things right? Everything fits into place when it should do. I should just stop overthinking everything and accept growing up is just necessary. I may have no control on the ageing process, getting a receding hair line, wrinkles and the cellulite that seems to be ever so approaching. But I can control what I do during that time of growing up. I can just see myself at 60 years old still posing for selfies, signing Disney songs and making inappropriate jokes about everything around me.